Hi.

It's been a while since we've talked... honestly more so since I've been around.

Thank you for sticking around ❤

To put it frankly, 2019 sucked.  It was probably one of the worst years for me in recent memory.  Actually, I take that back.  The year started with a few punches to the gut and ended with one that's been the most eye opening.  To be frank it's a year that I would never want to redo over or wish anyone to experience.

After about a decade plus of not feeling like I have control over my life, I'm starting to regain control now of my life.  God it feels good.

If you're curious as to what's been going on, I've been discovering myself, letting myself be ok with who I am, feeling my emotions rather than pushing them aside, making my physical and mental health be a priority, and figuring out what's coming up next in life.  There's still a lot that I don't have answers to, but I'm starting to ask the questions and piece together things that might be answers.

This sums up how I'm looking at 2020, it's going to be a lot of work.  I'm still scared, excited, and feeling optimistic about it.  I see the mountains I need to climb and think that I've started setting the foundations to begin the treks to reach their summits.  Yes, treks.  There's going to be many that nee to be climbed, but the fire that's hasn't burned inside of me in a long time is starting to ignite that's going to help me reach the top.  It's time to feed the flames and let it burn brightly and fiercely.

The header image.  I saw this while wandering Tokyo and thinking about a million things.  Kodamatsu (the decorations on the sides of the door) are placed at the door/gate around New Years to welcome the God of the New Year (Toshigami-sama) to bless the location for the upcoming year and bring blessings to everyone.  I hope that for everyone reading this that your 2020 is a prosperous, happy, and healthy one.  Let's all do our best to make the most of the year and be better to each other.  Life really is too short and we should work hard to be happy not only on the inside but on the outside too.

Here's looking forward to a year that's like no other.